What's your fuel?

I always had trouble being inspired to do something. Something that wasn't easy or even clever for people to benefit from. I always wanted to do something of that sort. Being creative and making others inspired. Well if you are not inspired how can anybody feel inspired right? So I was set out to go and see very famous people and see how they got inspired. What motivated them? I went from Walt Disney, Winston Churchill, Tiger Woods (...before all his affairs), and even the late Steve Jobs before he died. These men were clearly driven to do what they do. Do what they love. So it made it simple for me what the first step was.

What do I love to do? The problem with this question is within my generation. From the moment you were born everything was planned for you. At a certain age you will definitely go to school and then at another certain age you will attend a different school. Finally when you reach another certain age your expected to know what you want pick those classes that you need and then your on your way to become a classic brand of contributing society.....which doesn't really work. This is the age of get things now and worry about it later. My generation is the league of xbox's where you don't really worry about the future since it tends to work itself out anyways with your parents going in front of you making sure things are ready for your future. That's great and all but where is the initial responsibility for the child to be prepared for the real world.

When I went on a 2 year mission for my church there was no parent there to hold my hand. No soft spoken person to give me direction. No person to help me at all! I suffered but I survived. There was so many rough moments but the main thing was I learned from them. And that's what I needed in my life. This life is a life of you get out there and actually make something of yourself and no one will hold your hand. Everyone is doing the same thing trying to make something out of themselves. They're not at all in it to help. And if your not there to pick yourself up then how can anybody try to help you in the first place.

So in general I fight this so much. What do I really want to do in my life? I prayed about it and some answers come. But without passion that comes behind it it's nothing. So I experimented with famous peoples words for awhile and this one stuck out to me.

"Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything - all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important." -Steve Jobs

I experimented with this quote and tried to really put in my heart that any moment I could die so why not make the most of it. And at present I feel more awakened to do things I never have sat down and really focused on. Now i'm doing this blog at presently 6:51 am which is not normal for me (who usually wakes up at 10 am). And suddenly I have plans to play and practice guitar so then I can make songs of my ideals and stories. Also I plan on being a web designer so I can get money quickly since I already took a class in highschool  to do it.


All these things just came to me once I instituted that quote to myself that since I will die I will make the most out of everything.


More on this on a later post. :)